I am very familiar with your emotions. In certain cases I've been in a mode after Shakespeare: "A Plague On Both Your Houses". It is true that I'm pro-Israeli. But I believe there is great distinction to be made in both historical events and behavior to allow a clear preference to Israel among non-involved, non 'biased' witnesses.
I think you have a blindness in your ability to parse events that makes every thing have an equal weight, hence evil deeds done by Israelis (an Israeli man shooting to death a group of Arabs in a mosque, which happened, the assassination of a Prime Minister by an Israeli) match with equal evil many many actions committed as policy over the years (suicide bombing campaigns involving citizens on buses, the capture and murder of Israeli athletes at the Munich Olympics, the invasion and murders of Israeli children in elementary schools, the shooting of several young Israeli girls by an Jordanian border guard, the mob killing by Palestinians of Palestinians who are thought to be informers, etc. etc). I would say that you are in a high state of positive feedback, so you get a square wave signal rather than a modulated signal, i.e. you get noise instead of information.
Your last statement:
No one should have been allowed to go in there after WWII and create a brand new nation by force of arms. It should not have been allowed to happen.
is not so much a case against Israel as an indictment of any nation state. That's how they all got started. Using it to pick on one nation is biased in the extreme. Particularly when that is exactly how the people now calling themselves Palestinians are attempting to do the same thing.