Having fallen from grace and the wagon, I'm giving it another go. This time instead of going in half hearted and half assed I've admitted to myself that I'm addicted both physically and mentally to nicotine and the act of smoking, but I know that they will KILL me if they get the chance. This wasnt much of an issue pushing 20, or 30. But now, with one foot on the train and the other nearing the platform marked 50 it has become paramount to me that it's time to do it...for good!!!

I made excuses before, It's only a half a pack a day, I like the act of smoking, I like the tasted of smoking. Now, I have to quit and make it stick. This makes the umpteenth time that I've "quit" stopped is a better choice of words, and I've gone from 6 months to 3 years, (I can't answer why, after 3 years I restarted, so please, don't ask.)

Had my LAST cigarette Yesterday about noon, The patch is helping to take the edge off this time, but I find the mental addiction to act of smoking to be the real kicker. That whole oral fixation thing I suppose, chewing gum, and on soda straws as well as sucking on ice seem to be working, for now.

I would appreciate any support taht any of you ex smokers, now smokers, and people who have realized that they are ADDICTED and want to join me.

Thanks Mudcatters, you folks are a blast to hang around with.
Chip