I just remembered--I wrote an apology poem to my ex-fiancee when I cheated on him (disgraceful, I know, but I was too young--15--and in a relationship that I wasn't mature enough for), and it could maybe be set to music. I certainly don't need it anymore, so anyone who wants to could do what they will with it--except record or sell it. . .

Never

Bridget McKinney, 1998

I never meant to fall in love,
Especially so soon,
You're all I ever dream of,
Nighttime or afternoon.
You're all that I could ever want,
And all I'll ever need again
You're my lover and my confidant
My pain and hurt and my best friend.

Never--never--never again
Never will I forget the pain--
The pain I caused to you

I never thought that we would last,
But this time I was wrong
I thought that you'd be in the past,
By this point in the song
I wish you were still here to hear
Exactly how sorry I am
Please forgive me soon, my dear,
Please realise just how lost I am (without you)

Never--never--never before
Has one of our fights evolved to a war
Why did I start it now?

I've never been in love 'till now
I never expected or wanted to be
Sometimes these things happen, but how
Oh how I could do that, I'll just never see
I suppose I thought you wouldn't know,
I didn't think that I'd get caught
I surely didn't think you'd go,
But mostly I just don't think I thought.

Never--never--never again,
Will I hurt you the way that I hurt you then
The question now is: Will you forgive me?

I don't know if anyone else here has ever felt that way, and I've put that in the past myself, but this is what I felt at the time.

Peace--Bridget