Thanks for some of the support!
I guess part of what makes it linger for me like it does is that there so many things I would have said to her, if I had known what was coming. That and the fact that I begged her not to drive becuase I had heard the weather predictions for that night. The cops said she didn't feel anything though, from the accident. It was a head-on at 120 mph total (both cars going 60).
Perhaps its the lack of closure that still keeps it painful. Or that I was really in love with her and never admitted it to anyone. *shrug*
I just read that this morning and started getting misty-eyed and had to do something to focus that energy. Usually a good talk with a friend, but when you're at work, and there's a class of teen-agers swarming you with questions on their projects... its not so easy
Thanks All around,