What's your day job Al? I work my own hours, where I choose, when I choose.I rarely stay in hotels, mostly with friends, although I generally drive back home. I meet fascinating people, make them happy and they pay me! It's been a deeply satisfying life that obviously wouldn't suit you. However,I don't know one of my fellow pros who would trade their life's work for any other.
The people who generally claim they would hate to earn money from their music are generally the people who couldn't.
After a lifetime on the folk scene I find the attitude that amateur is "clean" and pro is "tainted" which some espouse really is a case of repressed envy. I'm not saying this is so in your case, but over the years it seems that way to me. Anyway, I'm glad you've tried some of the experience and found it wanting, but I have to say I've never felt lonely as I've plied my trade, but I know I will when I don't.