I have missed a lot lately I see but the beauty of this place is that it works collectively all the time. I'm sure some of you are also like me.....if we're gone for a bit, some of our everyday thoughts are still here. Sometimes I try to get in but I get tired of waiting on the 'Cat. Sometimes even sitting here is a trial. Ain't that some crap?

Most times I am doing well and after starting an IV iron program, I really do feel much better. Over Christmas everyone said I looked and acted better than I have for at least 2 years. 'Course when I think of 2 years ago............LOL.....In all seriousness, I went through a really tough period through December but by Christmas I DID feel really great and acted much better too.....more like me. This past week has been a Chemo week and I feel better coming out of it than usual which may be related to the iron but something has helped out this time. Note though that in this game the Chemo ALWAYS suits up.

The Vidaza seemed to have quit working in November and as there is only one other drug I can use, that was extremely troubling. The iron has made a tremendous difference now and the numbers look really good again.   Insert BIG SIGH OF RELIEF here. So I was feeling bad for awhile but it brought Karen and I to the conversation we both knew but had yet to voice in detail. Even with (or because of?) the wonderful relationship we have it was one of those things that still had to be said between us. A few tough moments but we are now, if possible, even closer. Folks, I be married to one superfine woman/best friend/buddy/pal/lover.   Not real sure how I got this lucky........

I'll try to be more diligent than I have of late as I feel pretty good nowadays (except for the Vidaza weeks dammit) but please know you are always with me and I with you.

Spaw