I feel disliked. This seems to be ongoing. I think the Black Cloud is descending again.
Any ideas how I can stop it in its tracks ??
I'm told I'm lucky to be able to live where I do & do so much for myself, but I still feel as if I've failed & I'm disliked. Flatmates have said the nastiest things to people who work here ever, but nothing seems to get done about it. When my Consort / I are cross (he gets wound up more easily than I do), all hell breaks loose. 1 of us – usually me -- gets an absolute rollocking .
I feel like I'm not allowed off-days. I can't stand it anymore. I could write in a journal, but I don't want anyone finding it. I could go to my flatshare's boss, but I've never really felt that comfortable w/ her, cos she's 1 of these people that can't admit when/if she's wrong – it's always someone else's fault.
I've been lent another lot of spiritual books, basically saying you should ignore what/who upsets you/makes you angry cos you've a team of heavenly/divine spirit guides/companions on your side who think you're great – but you can't rely on them all the time (should they even exist in the 1st place)
& what if it's hard to get out & about/ignore who/what upsets you. What do you Catters do ??