The dates shown on some of your videos indicate you have been performing your particular material publicly for quite some time. It must be obvious to you that you have not cracked it to your satisfaction after all these years otherwise you would not have issued this "crie de coeur". Can one assume it is in respect of your desire to earn more from doing it? Why not get a rewarding job to underpin the your life`s expenses and enjoy entertaining your audiences as well as earning a little "pin money" on the side with busking and club performances during evenings and weekends without the worry of "where do I go now". It is obvious there are many people in Germany who appreciate your act to make it worthwhile.