Matthew--I don't think you are just fooling around, otherwise, you wouldn't have made the recordings or the videos, and, also, you wouldn't have posted here for critiques. I think you may have gotten more than you bargained for, but the comments are honest, and from a variety of serious musicians and performers, so you've done well.
Mindful of what has gone before, I have a few comments.
First, on the drug thing. Drugs are not important. The thing is, for regular drug users, they become important--often more important than anything else. That doesn't work when you play music, because the music has to always come first.
All of us have known and worked with really talented people who let the drugs come first, and we've all seen it play out. The music always loses out.
Next, a general comment on music.Creating music requires focus, discipline, and patience.
In the King James Bible, Matthew 18:9 (get it?) Jesus says, King James Bible
"And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast [it] from thee".
He was talking specifically to folks who create, perform, and record music. He meant that you should go over your tracks with tweezers, pliers, or a stump remover and pull out all the stuff that isn't exactly right. Best twelve bars, as they say.
(As for the Bible verse, you're new here and probably don't know that we have a some Mudcatters who hate religion--it's mostly for them)
Now a comment on the videos--they don't serve the music at all.
And the music--some interesting stuff there, but you need to find a strong center and build around it, getting rid of everything that doesn't work or doesn't fit. The stuff you leave our is just as important as what's there.
Thanks for sharing...and never stop working on it.....