Mrrzy, I fondly remember the time we met, many years ago, here in Portland. You're a great person, and I'm sorry you're going through the shit right now.

Anyway, y therapist told me not to focus so much on the big victories, but the small ones, the getting out of bed ones, the brushing teeth ones, the showering ones.

Because they all add up. Take care of yourself...and if things get worse don't be afraid to check out for a while. There's a nice hotel with staff that will give you the help you need.

I have many friends who have used such services from time to time. It saved their lives.