Dupont:

Mostly all I want to do is go back to bed -- but I don't. Two afternoon TV programs, then the 6pm news, TV if anything suits - rarely! 10 or 11 pm news and late to bed. Might feel like getting up by 9, sometimes 8. Depends largely on R; he sometime stays in bed longer and I make BF and eat, saving his until... He is overwhelmed by things that came to a screeching halt and then, when something needs to be done, he might do it or have a panic attack. Up and down like a yo-yo. This am I could not get moving so, seeing no BF forthcoming, he cooked a decent one for both of us.

The murders in Nova Scotia flattened me - like being run over by a Mac truck. There were only 9 Covid deaths---then 20 people murdered. This does not happen in NS, nor even in Canada. Stan Rogers music has been in mind.

Then he moved in a bunch of stuff he picked up at the, still unsold, Montreal house yesterday. This am, after trying for the 2nd or 3rd time to encourage the heat to re-start, he was putting stuff somewhere. I care but do not have the energy to look. He seemed happy; that is a plus! I did a load of laundry and watched my two programs, then, when I thought it was clearing, it started snowing!

I do have an outdoor project. Too early to plant anything but I take a walk around each morning to see what plants are progressing. Then spend 10-15 minutes a couple times a day, recovering what was once a nice stone pathway from backdoor to garage. A funny old, pointy at two ends and the edge, hoe, picks at the grass in between and on top - just shy of archeology! WOW! wider than I thought! Then the birds get the worms! I do it until back protests. Then back to FB and conversations there until I feel I can go at it again. (GEEZ!!! Now the sun is out!) The project is rewarding as it looks so much nicer!

Bit by bit, I am forming a comprehensive grocery list - for soon. I cannot do that again - go to stores! And R is not volunteering either. He is very careful not to get near any dubious place or person.

Not coping.