Your Mortality
Mortality is a constant reality in our human fragility and is not merely a singular event of death.
Fate exists moment to moment and the universe does not care about your personal narrative.
I have not sought the meaning of life but instead, have explored the meaning in life. The meaning that's shared in our bonds and in our passionate seeking of discovery. Those that dispose of their life are often alienated, have lost their curiosity and can no longer justify their suffering and pain in existence.
The question of consciousness is fundamental and is largely unknown. My only radical departure from this status quo is that I believe we can communicate consciousness without language or by visible means. Particularly to immense future events that will be experienced by many. This quantum trick is only for the living. Ghosts only whisper from the past. I view our consciousness as massive as the Earth while our superficial conscious ego is the thin tenuous atmosphere.
In my late thirties's the temporal horizon of my life switched from birth to present, to present to death and changed my desires, career and quests. Surprisingly the number one fear is not of death but of public speaking or a loss of status or reputation. Obviously, the notion of life after death is chained to nonsense and only serves to ignore the issue, or is sold as a fictitious reward for theological control reasons.
The preferred death is a meaningful death and not a meaningless death. I don't think it really matters since you're not in control of the switch at the end. Nor do I think it can be done in your normal sleep since you are bound to be aroused by something going wrong. It would be the shortest-lasting memory, however.
So here is a toast to your death, sooner or later may it be a good one.

PS Regarding religious views of death and the functionality of religion beyond the propositional dogmas, there is wisdom to be gained in religious knowing. There are many kinds of knowing like a person with procedural knowledge who have dementia who can still sing or play an instrument flawlessly or a person with a salience of episodic memory of where they are and memory that serves so well to the exclusion of everything else irrelevant, as to be genius. There is also participating knowing like participating in having an insight occur and not forcing/creating an insight to be made.
Today myth means a falsehood but Mythos refers to long-lasting recurring truths. In a similar religious vein, magic mushrooms are remarkably helpful for anxious people who are frightened by aspects of their mortality because they powerfully aid one's contemplative and meditation states of mind unlike the loss of control with beer. Meanings become far more deeply fundamental in practical ways than in the usual state of consciousness. Some have called it wisdom. With beer it's called pissing oneself or getting pissed.
How psilocybin creates such openness, roughly speaking. is that certain regions of the brain start talking to one another while other regions stop talking. Relationships improve, transformative behaviors ensue, a sense of self improves and anxieties diminish without addictive or dependency problems. Having this pre-mindset is helpful but not required.
My point is that religion or mystical experience need not be cast in the lake of nonsense, evil outmoded teachings aside.