Dupont:

Energy level remains too low for trip to Beaver. no sign of improvement. Appt with Dr tomorrow afternoon. In the meantime, I am trying to get my life in better order for whoever is left to deal with my piles of paper and clothing and unsold pottery., etc.!! My happy thought is the friend who took the cream of the fabrics!

Son Taun took photo of all my passwords last year but with the death of computer in June and ... I need to make a new list.... Arghhh! Just want to leave stuffs to folks who will make good use, like the crew at the Jardin de la Resistance; a bale of clothing would suit the farm work and some for special events.

OK, so I am a little sad but not a lot. I have had enough of the insanity of this world but I shall try and play it out to the end - as positively and usefully as possible. I am hoping the Dr will be able to clue me on on how this might play out. Last night
/early this am, I was feeling so low in energy, I was wondering "how many more minutes?" and woke R to come to bed so he would be close by. I needed a hug!!!

I pulled myself out of bed about 10 am and folded or hung a pile of R's shirts - just to tidy up. Yesterday, I did a laundry and put nicer sheets on the bed - flannel is all we use now. Trying to get the house closer to clean and tidy; friends from CN are visiting briefly this coming weekend; they are also very special - Jeff and Taun met in grade 7! apparently I was an "other mother" for Jeff in his teens. Missing from our lives for many years, Taun found him and -only change - we are all older! When R and I went to CN for the wedding of the son of a close friend of 50 years - we stayed with Jeff and found out he had gone into wood working because of that friend; Jeff's dad had been one of Robin's closest friends and ! the reason Taun ate his veggies at Jeff's house - Jeff's Dad would not eat overcooked veggies!!! and neither will Taun! Mother's are supposed to know these things???

So, I keep on making small stabs at cleaning up and doing important things -auto reg paid, now auto insurance and whatever...