I won't bore you with the history of how I got where I am, suffice to say between growing up, my job, and to some extent the family I started, all contributed to severe depression and anxiety. Not being able to "Get Over It" as the Eagles so eloquently put it. Depression contributing to weight problems, sleeping problems, magnifying aches and pains, a downward spiral. Those closest to me only knew that I had changed without being able to tell me how, but no...they didn't think it was depression. When the suicidal thoughts came I got help. I'm on celexa now. I used to try to remain totally drug free, thinking that my body was a temple and that I was polluting it somehow by taking these drugs. But then I thought about it. Even temples get leaky roofs and cracked foundations and have to be repaired! They don't fix themselves or "get over it". I initially doubted that the medicine was working until the week I ran out and kept forgetting to get the prescription refilled. I went down like the Titanic!

If you feel (or don't feel as the case may be)like you need help please get it. Therapy to help you deal with the underlying mental problems, possibly chemical to immediately deal with the physical side (it might take a little time to find the right drug for you), watch your diet and exercise, and it doesn't hurt to explore the spiritual side. Each of these things alone can help, together they can (notice I don't say will)help you get on your feet.

And in case you're wondering, it is hard to write this.

God Bless