Mickey, I know that anything anyone can say will be at best only a little comfort. I felt I wanted to add my two bob's worth anyway. I had a bi-lateral mastectomy 7 years ago. I carry the gene that would have had me developing breast cancer. I know that's not the same as it was for you. I was able to choose my path. My heart goes out to you all the same. I can understand at least a little of your pain. It's a hard road but it gets a little easier as time goes on. I avoid giving advice because I don't have any answers really, but speaking for myself anger eats me up and I was much better able to cope when that stage of my healing was over. Good luck. Thinking of you. Another tit-less wonder. J