Call those friends, Allison, the ones who said they'd be available. Knowing you and your connection with them through music, I am sure they meant it. I know there is great difficulty in just doing it, but try baby steps for a little bit and count each one as a victory. Even one thing per day is to be counted. And, most of all don't be embarrassed by your need to really grieve, tears, wailing and all. And, know there is no time limit...our society needs to allow time to grieve and to honour it.

If you have a little bit of rose quartz, I would keep it near, if I were you. It's a good stone to protect a wounded heart, imo.

My mom passed on four years ago and I still cry out to her and talk to her quite often. Sometimes she answers.:-)

Be gentle with yourself, darlin'....

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