Hang in there Allison. It's hard in the beginning. Wondering why everyone is going around acting like there's nothing differnt when your world has completely changed. Why can't they see it? I know that feeling. I too questioned God and that whole thing of not giving you more than you can bear. He's got some serious explaining to do when we meet! I once lost my ppcket angel in the couch. It had fallen out of my pocket. I nearly tore that thing apart until I found it. Keep posting here and talking to us. We'll go through this with you. At my daughter's funeral, the "hippie priest" said that this is a burden we would not have to carry alone- there are others who will walk with you and remember with you. Those were very wise words and also true. James