I am so sorry for your loss and hope you feel better with time. If you are inclined, I wonder if massage would be good now...also aromatherapy..rose in particular is supposed to be good for grief..there is someone I know via internet who runs a company called Anatolian Treasures and his rose oil from Turkey is said to be very fine..he sells in very small quantities..I wish I could get some for you but I can't right now...but take care...mg