Allison, no need to apologize for this thread. It blesses not only you, but all who love & all who read it. I suspect many, like me, have been keeping up with your life in this way & giving what support we can, each is his/her own way. This thread helps us remember that you hurt & your sharing lets us see the triumphs each day brings, as well as the sorrows. Know that you are loved by us & by God. May He hold you close in His arms!