Allison,
There will be candles burning for you and Byron here again today. Just hang in there, huh? Allow yourself to feel when you can, and barricade your feelings for a while if it gets too overwhelming.
Do you have a copy of Musicman's CD called Farewell? It is very healing, I think. I played it a lot after Mum died.
{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}
Helen