Yours is a wonderful description of a "peak experience". Those moments change lives. Once you know what one feels like, you search for more. Your very fortunate to have found a way you can repeat it. I think it is the search for moments like that, to repeat them, that makes some people devote their lives to a process; painting, singing, acting, dancing, writing, even if it means sacrificing things that others hold precious such as family, security.

You are extrememly lucky, I think, to be in such close contact with what gives you that sort of transcendent rush. I hope that your "coming out" performance provides you with yet another.

Sourdough