My thoughts are with you Allison. I hope the sage advice of the Catters who love you has been helpful. I know your loss was sudden and this can be so hard to cope with.

I lost a dear young friend to cancer earlier this year, and just this morning my best friend and companion of 16 years, Ziggy the cat. Pets are our unconditional loved ones; our grief for them is less complicated perhaps. This makes me think of all the people I have lost and will still lose. This is a part of being alive. I don't have any other   wise words to impart. But one friend wrote on email: "I am sure that he will carry the story of the love you have given him over the years to the great Gods." I found this sad but true, and comforting.

be well,
peg