Ya know what guys
If Heide was here she would be right in there argueing with you on how I should Grieve! She loved a good debate and this is a good debate!!

Nothing I've read here seems harmfull, Only people triing to be helpfull! And Heide was quite often My "brain" Iv'e lost that and could use all the guidence I can get so all sudgestions are welcome, and debateing is encouraged if kept in a friendly non-preachey fashion. She had a lot more spirituality than me and I don't know what to believe in now!

David

Thanks for looking out for me Mick!