The support here is overwhelming. I am okay. Really I am. I just told Allison the same thing in a pm. I have a lot of friends around and we are are going through this together. I think that's what happens when we live in a small town and know and love so many people.
I know them for a long time and now they have moved on. Why so soon together is the mystery we are dealing with. And why so young? 4 out of 5 friends were under the age of 50.

This early morning when I wrote this post, I had just gone through another emotional rollercoaster. Finding out about Henry and Mike's brother was faced with so much despair last night he went on a what seemed to be a death wish snow- mobile ride that ended him up in a tree. Thankfully he was alright and a friend and me were there to help him get through some of his pain.

Mick you are right. I am trying to deal with my thoughts of death. I think I will find that hill for awhile and do some deep breathing! Funny when I almost died myself, a year and a half ago I joked about it and had no fear. I had less fear than my friends and family that were there with me. That could have been the poison in my system though!

Laurel- MOAB is the thread The Mother of all BS, the one with over 2000 posts of BS! John played the electric washboard. It was really quite a simple set up of an attached pick-up to the back of the board. It's pretty cool. You can hear him play and sing on the tape "In Memory of David's Buick" by Bob Saar.
Thank you all again. I am so appreciative of the support here on the Cafe and I think I will print this out and pass it on to others around here that don't have you folks!
Love, Rustic