You have my respect Les, for your obvious resilience and strength of principle. Don't worry about 'letting (us) good folk down', it was you who was let down by those 'gentlemen' (I use the term very loosely!).

"And you to whom adversity has dealt the final blow
With smiling bastards lying to you everywhere you go
Turn to and put out all your strength of arm and heart and brain
And like the Mary Ellen Carter rise again!"

Good luck mate.
JB