I remember once when he said. "I'm just waiting for the life I had 3 seconds before the accident to come back." I'm waiting for the life I had before my hip snapped to come back. Walking on two legs is an incredible thing. Walking CORRECTLY on two legs is amazing. Enought about me.
Suicide is a nasty business. The person who is dead is finally free of pain and demons. For family and friends, the life long pain is just beginning.