The Mudcat Café TM
Thread #68124 Message #1165489
Posted By: MMario
19-Apr-04 - 03:12 PM
Thread Name: An Open Letter to Rick Fielding
Subject: RE: An Open Letter to Rick Fielding
I've been avoiding this for too long - and for a selfish reason. I don't "do" death well. Never have. And for a number of reasons yours in particular has hit hard. But I *do* want to post - if only to let you know that I feel priviliged to have created a memorial to you in knotted yarns - I hope it brings as much comfort to Heather when she holds it around her as it did for me in creating it.
So many people have put their best wishes into it - I said on the other thread I could not have created this shawl for heather alone - and it is true. You know that feeling you get that you are being observed - even when you don't see anyone around looking at you? I had it the whole time I was working on the shawl.
the numbers worked out correctly - even though I was creating a pattern on the fly - the lengths of the yarn worked out correctly - even the weather cooperated - we had the first two dry days in WEEKS just when I needed to block the shawl out on the deck.
More importantly - as I worked on the shawl for Heather - I did not enter my usual "brain-off" mode that is normal for me when I am crafting. Instead, my mind stayed busy with processing the many,many posts to you and about you on various threads. And in doing so I was able to process some of the issues I've had about other deaths in the past. (and somewhere nearer to you then to me I know there are a bunch of people saying "it's about TIME!!!!)
Still words do not come easily or correctly - but at least they are coming and not being swallowed. Merry Meet, merry part and Merry meet again!