I find it remarkable, dear GUEST, that in spite of your anonymity, the thread has now become about you -- tha tis not meant in a demeaning way, just an observation. I of course have no way of really knowing what this lashing out is all about, but I can tell you this much: until the true source of your upset is identified all you will get is persistence of pain. When you address the right source, it will shift. Blaming is not part of the truth. Most hardly never...

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