John,

You need to get help. And you need to get it very soon.

There are groups in Hull that will welcome and help you. You have to make a decision, though, that you want to help yourself.

I've been there, my friend, and understand how hopeless you now feel. I also now know that it doesn't have to be that way.

I pray you'll get the help you need.

I am a friend of Bill W. You should become one too.