"At least we now know why I'm crazy."
Maybe...
Maybe not.

I hope you stay the good sort of 'crazy'.

Nothing I've ever had done to me was as horrible as what I'd anticipated. Maybe I've just been lucky, but I think dreaming up all those possible 'worst case scenarios' was worse than anything real.

I don't know why pain killers wouldn't work. Anti-inflammatories work at the actual site, but most others affect the way your brain experiences pain. It's the interpretation of the pain signal, not the actual signal or where it's coming from.

In any case, I hope the surgery and recovery goes really well. I hope you're reasonably cranky (in a happy sort of way) afterwards, because they say obnoxious patients heal faster. I hope you find things you love to do now that will crowd out the fear.

All the Best,
Jeri