(LilyFestre - I will respond in PM later.)

Ok. Now that Steve knows what he wants to do, we talked for a bit. Then he talked with his mother for a bit, then he came back and talked with me again. His dad is away tonight, which is probably fortunate, although since his dad used to work at one of the careers Steve is considering, there will be a lot of questions tomorrow.

Steve and I will be separating, as he needs adventure and I need stability. He needs to go out in the wilds and I need an indoor place with good clean air and access to exercise equipment in that clean air. He never should have married anyone because he doesn't want to make that level of commitment to anyone and isn't yet capable of it, and might never be. I never should have married him because right now I need more than any one person could possibly give. However, I *will* be staying here until I can either find a place to stay in Ontario or until I apply to college in Canada and go to student residency.

If I flunk out of college because of my health issues, at least I'll be staying *somewhere* and have proof of my health issues, and it will be easier to get disability because of that proof. If I study business and apply what I learn to my business while in college, I may be able to avoid collapse, even if I have a lot of absences. (I had a hell of a lot of medical absences in high school, and although it is better now, well... it's still not all better.)

I was rather panicked because a lot of people have already given up on me and HAVE literally kicked me out with no place to go. But he's decided to help me the way I helped him - to be able to do what I need to do next with my life.

Now that we are separating, he's finding it a lot easier to advocate for me with his parents. And now, we both have plans, and we're both going to be the best ex-whatevers that we can be for each other, instead of trying to live up to something we can't live up to. I'm really going to miss a lot of things about him though.

Hey, happy endings can actually happen. Wow. Hopefully I can remember that the next time it looks like someone's giving up on me, although that's probably going to need a lot of counseling considering how often it has happened in the past.