Dear Jon,

As one of your friends here at the Mudcat, it really upsets me that you're thinking like that. I've lost a family member and a very dear friend to suicide and I really don't want to have go through all the sadness, guilt, and anger all over again. At one point in my life, I had similar thoughts, but, I am very glad that I asked for help. Because I did, three human beings walk this earth today that would never have existed if I had not asked for that help.

I know that right now it might seem to you that the pain you feel inside will not end -- but, I promise you, Jon, it will, if you ask someone to help you. Call a friend there near you and tell them how you feel. Just getting the words out will take a big load off your soul. Please, please, take that first little step. Care about yourself, because we care about you.

With every good prayer, Áine