"Should I be..."

Subjective... your 'shoulds' are not my 'shoulds' any more than mine are yours...


Oh... and to reply to something from above.. I make no attemtp to 'justify' my actions to anyone here... I do what I do... and if you don't like it, don't do it... I continue in this thread simply as a matter of discussion... I feel no need to justify my actions... It was a false urge that went away when I had my guilt gland removed many years ago...