I notice that you are across the pond PLEASE....check into a faith group called ALPHA....started by Nicky Gumbel in England. It is a great , realistic, practical approach to the Christian faith. I found it very helpful AND hopeful. My life's worth of crap would have ended a few years back if I had my way.....thank God for God and prayer, it did not. I have been falsely accused of things, been to court, lost my dad, brother, father in law, mom to early death, had a Christian marriage fail...due to among other things, my spouse's adultry, raised two kids.....one who is a going concern due to being high functioning autistic,was diagnosed with MS a few years back............that is just the start.....I won't go on. My point is SHIT HAPPENS...to us all, at some point, to some degree or other. I chose to ask Christ into my life and with his help, I still LIVE in this life.....shit and all....But, I strongly believe He is with me to see me through.Thankfully, after some time, I have found a small church made up of wounded, needy, healing REAL people to be in community with. Our touchstone, besides our faith in Christ, is MUSIC....a few professionals and many lovers of......On a medical front, PLEASE seek out a health professional to work with some natural remedies...ie St. John's Wort etc. It is God's wish that we prosper , that we have NOT the spirit of fear but of love and a sound mind....I cannot give you the scripture reference ....not great at that BUT I know it is in THE BOOK. Keep praying and seeking His best for you.