Jon, I've been away from my computer, so missed your postings. I have a very dear friend whose houndings seem to come from the same department as yours. Your first posting could have been from him. My heart goes out to you. His bad patches, too are associated with Christianity, though he has stayed outside formally. (He would argue with the modifier, but I know few people who are as open to the Spirit as he is, even in the darkness). My sister, who is in the process of having detritus dumped on her by her husband and something he found in the US, sees the process as one of gaining spiritual strength, and, when not down or raging, is certainly developing amazing generosity to those who are hurting her. I do not understand why some people seem to be selected for hurt. It makes me rage at God, who has set up the world so that the selfish and the strong get to exercise freewill at the expense of others. There is support, though. My friend has friends who reach out to him. My sister has her supporters, too. You have your friends here, and I am sure will find people closer to home, as well. I wouldn't advise going to any particular church or group rather than another. Be open to God reaching out for you, perhaps in an unexpected way.

And, not to be negative, but having done it myself, living in the expectation of meeting a partner can mean that the time when waiting is not enjoyed for itself, and if it turns out that there will be no partner, the time cannot be relived. I have lost time to regret.

I will be holding you in the light,

Penny