lts - if the "squitters" is what it sounds like, you are definitely not having fun. I'll send comforting thoughts your way. I'm sitting here at work also worrying about a friend's mother who is having surgery in an hour and a half for suspected kidney cancer. When my first wife developed brain cancer, we were convinced that everybody's prayers and concern made life easier for her. In fact, she lived 7 years after the doctors had predicted 6 months. Miracles happen every day, it's just a matter of recognizing them. Hang in there, Squeak!