This is kind of OT but addressed to John "Giok" - Have you seen this person you missed out on so long ago recently? I ask this because not too long ago I ran into somebody I had a giant crush on but he didn't return my feelings. I used to sometimes think "what if". When I saw him and actually talked to him after more than 20 years (just by accident, I wasn't looking for him or anything) I was really glad I didn't end up with him (not that the one I did end up was better - just different and oh well we won't go there). The old flame actually asked me out on a date but I was not in the least interested.