Mr. Rassmuessen
You certainly have more than one regrets from your past.
Perhaps, you should consider therapy?
Many MC'ers would perhaps volunteer to refresh the steams-of-consceinous they have traversed before your faltering trapsings. Some might free...others might require a fee (for the book, CD, consultation)
I think you need it.
Sincerely,
Gargoyle
Let Go ....let GOD