Just one other thing - I know you might be happier posting as Guest, but I just wanted to say that it's absolutely nothing to be ashamed about. I mean, if you had a broken leg and you came on here saying you were having trouble getting back to walking properly, people would be unlikely to judge you. I realise it is different with mental health, and there's still a taboo element, but it's an illness, and I really hope you don't feel you have to hide it. I know the huge gulf between sympathy and empathy when it comes to this kind of thing, and I still hesitate to talk about the stuff I go through, but there are plenty of us out here who know exactly what it's like, and my heart goes out to anyone going through it. And I'm a cynical cow, so that's me being ultra-understanding. ;)