Kendall......beautiful words...but..."It doesn't care that I'm not home???"   That's 'cause it's not missing you 'cause you're NOT gone. You're going to go out with her every time she sets sail, no matter who's at the helm. Every repair, every touch, every decision, every quickened heartbeat, every moment of joy and every tear on her deck .....You are still very much with her and she with you. Never will change....it can't.

So, grieve as you need to my friend, and do what it takes to take care of the ache. And when the time is right, soon, I hope, begin writing. There are many tales to be told in the way only you can tell them. The children, expectant, will gather around , and listen wide eyed as the stories abound.

KT