Ah there you go. I'm always serious in the middle of my joking and laughter. No, I don't want to marry - it was my way of saying I think my friend is terrific but marriage is a very serious matter to some people - and asking people to marry is a PROPOSAL. Serious stuff.   My friend thought I was serious but now knows differently. I love and am very loyal to my friends as I am to my partners. Same really, but no sex with the friends. My last partner, who I loved very dearly, was described by my friends as ugly as a hatfull of arseholes - how could they???? But he was a sweet man, very dignified and gentle. I had to leave him which was difficult, because something happened that I wasn't prepared to accept. I've never looked - ever - been very happy with my friends, extensive family, etc. etc. but someone always comes along.   I thought my last one was forever - we were friends for 15 years - but I was wrong. We were together as a couple for three years. He came to me at a time of great grief in my life and it was all so unexpected and wonderful. Now, well now, I wish him well. And I'm not looking once again but someone always turns up somehow don't they? And then you make up your mind, or not. I started this thread after being with my friend and sorting out this issue and I guess it was a bit silly to do it but I was feeling contemplative, it was late, a pathetic sort of 'alone' chat. Odd. But there you go. I did it. However, I AM looking for a number of girlfriends, beautiful, successful, independent, gentle, sweet, caring, oh just so wonderful, and all in some way looking for someone to care for and who would care for them. Know any wonderful men for them?????????????????