Guest rather not say, I won't offer any advice, but I will share some of my own experience. After being fired from a job (at which I was also spending a lot of time on the 'cat), I was so demoralized that all I could bring myself to do, month after month, was play computer solitaire while listening to Folk Alley. At first I thought this was a phase and I'd soon pull out of it, and I just needed to be patient with myself. But after, oh, 4 or 5 months of my not being able to do anything else, my husband's sense of alarm and my own hit a level that demanded some kind of intervention. I finally went to my HMO mental health place and saw the shrink there. He put me on Zoloft and had me start seeing a therapist and coming to group. Once the meds kicked in, the therapist and the group seemed less necessary -- but I was very impressed by a book called "Feeling Good" by a Dr. David Burns, which I found very helpful, re Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, CBT, I think. The meds plus the CBT got me off my rear end, and I gradually became more active -- although I've never been as fully employed as I might be, as I should be ("should" based on my perilous finances). After a little over a year I went off the Zoloft and have never needed it again. Not that I don't have challenges, but I've never been as paralyzed again, I've always felt functional. I'm glad that the Zoloft was available, and I'm glad that after a year or so I was able to stop taking it. It was helpful to me. CBT was also very helpful.

I wish you good luck. It sounds as though you have a life that includes a decent job and people who care about you -- no small thing! We'll all be interested to know what follows.