I'm so sorry. My own dear nephew Nathaniel died about 1 1/2 years ago, a little shy of his 40th b'day. (Amos' nephew, too.) He, too, was a great gift in our lives, a bright, smart, funny, big-hearted guy. Sometimes it does seem that only the good die young.   We all have a lot of dearly loved ones on the other side. Wishing you comfort, strength, love.