*daylia*

I'm sorry you're very down. It's obviously an unpleasant/horrible place to be.

To go along with you,one vent first.

   I take heart from E.Presley allegedly saying,"I don't know anything about music. In my line of work you don't have to."

   Couldn't have put that better - so,E.P., bloody go awaaaaaaaaayyyy.

   BUT I don't believe music is the real difficulty, anymore than it was for the "metal suicide". Music's just the scapegoat. *daylia*, I bet your downness, for which commiserations is about other things, tho' I'm too much the Gestalt therapist to start surmising or guessing, and, in a way, it's none of my business.

   Music can't MAKE people do this or that. When we say that, where is our taking OUR responsibility for ourselves. Blaming lets us off the hook.

Maybe , *daylia*, you are finished with music;maybe not. I don't feel music is the problem,(except, maybe for Wagner, Schoenberg and rock 'n' roll)as such, any more than money, drugs, war, lack of money, religion,or other targets.

Life is hard, and all we've got.

Wishing you the best,

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