LOL

And the reason my debating style is so often the focus of discussion in threads like this one is because when people (people like you, Wolfgang) are not able to successfully dispute the factual content of my posts, they (and you) resort to ad hominem attacks. It's the best you and they can come up with when you and they haven't got anything of substance to offer. Like in your last several posts to this thread. And also when they are angry with themselves for providing me with stuff I can use in support of my arguments, like you did in this thread.

You shouldn't be so hard on yourself, though. You screwed up, but you really need to try to put that behind you and get on with your life.