*mulling over how 'doubting' my soul can curse it if, in fact, it turns out there was none*...

I do, as a matter of fact, use the word 'soul' at times...it expresses a feeling and a depth of concern, and metaphorically conveys something....but no one who knows me well assumes I am granting some metaphysical 'reality' to the idea. It is personal, poetic and full of whatever emotion *I* choose to grant it under certain circumstances.....sometimes it is hard to find another word...