Yes, but with the years on me..... why am I having that kind of nightmare again?

I just met last week with the top executive who is our district manager (my boss's boss). She is a grandmotherly type, as it turned out, and no pressure at all. Being the end of the canvass for this directory, she was here to meet with staff and help plan for the next one. I'm obviously the one who is being the hard taskmaster on myself about getting everything to be perfect. I think because I can design ads myself, which is not what most reps can do, I have that added burden of wanting it to look great, not just getting the contract done. Yeah, overachieving yet again.
When I was in college, I knew what I wanted to do. I started in fine art and finished in fine art, no deviation. THEN I found the art world was nothing like art school "painted" it to be.