Hey, I'm human. You want to perceive me as burning bridges, that's up to you. However, I am the one who has to live with my limitations, and I'm sorry if that makes it easy for me to get frustrated when people don't understand when I tell them over and over that there's a limitation right there so I can't take their advice, no matter how well-intentioned it is. I'm the one who has to live with people getting angry at me for not "just" overcoming a limitation by wishing it'd go away.

If the shelter hadn't made me sick and if the government had given us enough money for food and medication, I'd have had a part-time job all summer to contribute to savings and would probably be studying on my own rather than going to college. But the government doesn't work that way. I'm sorry if I get frustrated with people who have rose-coloured glasses on and believe that the government actually helps poor people just because it's "supposed" to help them according to popular belief.

The truth is, I have to act as if it's a worst-case scenario, and I have to find a way to make the worst-case scenario WORK. That way, if I find part-time work I can actually do, the debt gets repaid faster.

Nothing in life happens without support from other people. I don't understand how some people don't understand that.

I'm very, very close to functional. I've lived unfunctional for a very long time, and yes, I get impatient. I want to be well, I want to work, I want to contribute. I don't see people trying to understand that; I see a few people understanding and a few people metaphorically telling me to fly when I can barely walk, then telling me I'm ungrateful for being upset.

Do you know, I tell myself every day that I should be flying? I should just be able to get a job, everyone else can? I should be able to do the impossible, because that's the only thing that will help?

I live under incredible pressure all the time, and I'm human. Sorry if I snap occasionally.