I tough to say, Wave. I'm a mixture of both your feelings...all I can do is wait and pray for forgiveness. I feel like such scum for what I've done...and the fact that I hurt her is sometimes to hard to bear. Both of us are trying to become at least acquaintances again, but it may take a good long time. Hoo boy, 5 years is an awful long time. I don't really know what to say...I'm very unexperienced in these matters. I'm 21, and supposed to be an adult, but I feel like an ignorant 8 year old sometimes. I have a lot of growing to do. And I know like HE does that it is extremely hard to let go and try and find someone new. I've been waiting for someone for 21 years, and it still hasn't happened. I can't say how long it will take for him to recover. I'm sort of like a Little Red Rubber Ball--the harder you throw me, the higher I bounce back. Ugh...I'm rambling...perhaps we should go to personal pages, unless there are any other youngster who could use this as reference material?

--Mbo