I think it was musical ego that drove me to want to play--just the fact that others could sing and play music made me kinda jealous. So here I am, a good music player, at least from what I've heard, and after years of family telling me I had a lousy voice, I learned sound volume and vibrato by myself, and can now sing baritone well, I think, but others would probably think I'm bad. My ego to perform is almost noexistent. I'm am so frightened and nervous when playing for anyone but myself, that I can't play right, which destroys the whole concept of performing. There is so much I want...and so much that is impossible for me to grab onto. I guess I'll end up a musical Emily Dickinson or something. It's like Foster & Lloyd say: "Man...I can't have nothin'!"

--Mbo